Idiot

I just felt that there are many things left unexplained.
Its still bugging me, but I cant seem to find anymore questions I need to ask.
The truth is out and I feel like an idiot more than ever.
I haven been blogging in a while but lately there are so many feelings I need to put down in words but i am too afraid to put in on my blog, (which i am sure no one reads anyway and hence i deleted the post everytime i type one.)
There are so many things I want to know but yet I refuse to hear. I wanted you to say something more at that point, to convince me that I am wrong . But you didn't although i prompt you so many times. And probably if you did say something then, it probably wasnt something I wanted to hear. Maybe it was better that way. Since now everything really has come to an end.